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Time
02:33
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Some dreams are too real to remember,
Their beauty will fail in your hands;
They'll stun you and float you downriver,
You'll walk before long on the land.
If poetry's mumbles are precious,
Then all of our stumbles are too;
We start and we finish with nothing,
Where time gives your time back to you.
I found your heart in a fever,
You found my dream in a cave;
We rose and walked on together
In the light that eternity gave.
As if God didn't move on the water,
As if clowns don't scream in the wind;
As if we could change one iota
of how the old story begins.
Where is the laughter and music?
Where is the shouting and song?
Why does love fly like the phoenix?
Where does it hide for so long?
I'm crawling back to my childhood,
Tomorrow when morning comes true;
I'll run with the prodigal spirits
Who save all their kisses for you.
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Tunnel Vision
02:39
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I walked through a narrow tunnel,
Where I could not run for fear;
And when I made it through the tunnel,
I called it a year
Please mother don't be angry,
Through I may deserve a slap;
For leaving all your money
In some total stranger's lap.
That's an altar on the mantle,
Just a flower in a vase;
Love and murder in one circle
Show a poet how to praise.
And father, don't be sorry,
It was time that drove us down;
If we return with pockets empty
Of the treasures we have found.
We were steady in the fever
Where the flying things are pearled;
And I believe we touched the lever,
If we could not move the world.
Now lover don't look weary
To find me still so shy;
After all the fire and glory,
There is only you and I.
And if we falter in the fever,
And we cannot keep our place;
Then our blood is of the river
That runs through open space.
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Sparrow
01:55
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She'd fry a mess o' bacon, cook a pot o' beans,
It was her Grandma's recipe, way down in New Orleans.
In a big midwestern city, girders groan and strain,
She's living in a walk-up, at 43rd and Main.
She's fatter than her mama, bigger than the blues,
Louder than the comics in the Sunday news.
Cigs in the breadbox, sugar on the shelf,
If a man don't come to fill it, she'll fill it up herself.
Sunday in the church pew, Sparrow on the wing,
Sweat is pouring off of you, listen to her sing.
Sunday in the church pew, Sparrow come and gone,
Hard not to wonder how she'd look with nothing on.
Where's the money come from, where's a dollar go?
Children get a stern hand of guidance and the glow.
When the tower crumbles, Daughter will be there,
Sitting with the witness in the hospital chair.
Send a card and flowers, stop a while and pray,
You woulda known her better, but it wasn't in your way.
She'd fry a mess o' bacon, cook a pot o' beans,
It was her Grandma's recipe, way down in New Orleans.
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Folksingers are Boring
03:47
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Nobody comes to the coffeehouse
Nobody comes to the coffeehouse
Nobody comes to the coffeehouse
Folksingers are boring
First they start some silly song
Try to make you sing along
Always drag it out too long
Folksingers are boring
First they sing a song about a train
Then they sing a song about a train
Then they sing a song about a train
Folksingers are boring
Folksingers have flabby buns
They all play the same bass runs
They're against the private ownership of handguns
Folksingers are boring
Folksinger are born to lose
They wear old and ratty shoes
Then they try to sing the blues
Then they're really boring
Give us salsa, give us soul
Give us good old rock and roll
Pass the bong and pass the bowl
Folksingers are boring
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5. |
No Secret Castle
03:21
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Once we were so happy, once we were so young,
Life just gets bigger and bigger, I feel I've got no tongue.
There's no hardship I won't bear, no tear I will not cry,
There's no box I would not open, no place I would not fly
There's a sailor on the ocean, who has stolen all the songs,
The ones I used to write you, delirious and long;
But there's no secret castle, and I have no magic key,
There is nothing I can give you, without you loving me.
Every time I feel the spirit moving in my heart,
I will bend myself to hear it, I will leave you in the dark;
I'll forget about the morning, I'll forget to make the bed,
In the evening there's a warning, and an oven full of bread.
I've been searching for the fountain, while drinking at the dregs,
I've been hiding on the mountain, where the eagle lays her eggs;
And it's like I am struck dumb, and you are deaf and blind—
There's nothing I can give you that I have not been to find.
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Here comes that lady again, we have heard so much about
Here comes that lady again, we have heard so much about
She's come to plant the garden and take the garbage out
Here comes that lady again, we have heard so much about
Hear the cowboy whistle, hear the cowboy sing
Hear the cowboy whistle, hear the cowboy sing
He's come to bring the herd in and force a gathering
Hear the cowboy whistle, hear the cowboy sing
Your shadow did surprise me, when I was in the light
Your shadow did surprise me, when I was in the light
Rise and follow softly, good morning into night
Your shadow did surprise me, when I was in the light
Here comes that lady again, we have heard so much about
Here comes that lady again, we have heard so much about
She's come to plant the garden and take the garbage out
Here comes that lady again, we have heard so much about
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7. |
Never Enough
06:19
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Whatever I have, it is never enough
Glide on smooth water and make it rough
Own my own home and think it strange
Sit in my kitchen, wait for life to change
Out in my garden grow peaches and berries
Up in the chimney live goblins and fairies
Out by the rock by the water running
Out by the rock by the lizard sunning
I want to be free, not another dull tragedy,
Come with me, I have seen the fields
Come with me, I have seen the fields
We walked two by two by eight, but the sun driving down
And the candy we ate made us ugly and mad
Left us walking alone, in the dead zone
In the dead zone
Life came to visit, he was big in size
He sat and he broke my chair and he told me lies
About the income tax and his other facts
His coat was manifold, his manner bleak and gay
He stuttered easily and he rose and he died away
Death came to visit, it was small in size
And it spoke mo truth and it told no lies
And it spoke no words but two blackbirds flew out of its cape
In trying to escape, they bang the windowpane, bang the windowpane
Bang the windowpane, blackbirds blackbirds, bang the windowpane
Bang the windowpane, bang the windowpane,
Hear the bell ring,
Hear the bell ring,
It might be for you, it might not be,
Hear the beil ring
I am in the race, you are in the race
We are God's own, we are no disgrace
Cast your vote upon the water,
Cast your vote upon the rage,
Send your note up to the stage
This is your place
This is my place
Get that gong out of my face
Get that gong out of my face,
gong gong gong gong, going gong gong gong gong gong gong
Give me shooboopadoo, give me shoobopadee,
Get my home run city out of slavery
We were drunk in love, we were tip to bow
We were high and full, but we are sober now
We are sober now
We know many things
They have made us weak
We have many friends with whom we do not speak
We have many sorrows which we cannot cry
We are still in darkness though we can't see why
Though we can't see why
God is after you, Henry
And I hear he's mad
I heard him on the back porch
Talking to your dad
He said he's tired of ya
Running around his yard
Playing hide and seek
You'd better stay on guard
God is wearing an old blue hat
And some baggy pants
He's staking out the neighborhood
You haven't got a chance
Here he comes, Henry, the Great Forgiver
To unwind your bowels and pluck out your liver
I will make a shield, Henry
With my little sister
We'll go up to God and we'll say
"Hey, Mister
Where's the barbershop
Where's the barbershop
We need a little off the top
Can you direct us to the barbershop?"
And if you get safe, Henry
If you escape Hell's door
We still don't like you
Don't come around no more
There's not much I want, just to make amends
With a former lover and a couple of friends
By a happy fire, on a little hill
I would like to read my will
Tell a little story, and pass through glory
With a hand in a hand in a hand in a hand in a hand
But I fear for my children, and seeing them damned
I wait for the gang to come to the door
Or the police to come
With guns on their hips
Lies to sign
Slavery
The will be no one, only many
On a rack that goes around and breaks our backs across the ground
And again the sound,
Unknown to the guard who stands outside
So pale and grim and strong and stupid
Send me back to Ethiopia
Send me back to Madrid,
I want to see my sister again
Give me shooboopadoo, give me shoobopadee,
Get my home run city out of slavery
We were drunk in love, we were tip to bow
We were high and full, but we are sober now
Whatever I have, it is never enough
Glide on smooth water and make it rough
Own my own home and think it strange
Sit in my kitchen, wait for life to change
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It's not you that I'm leaving
When I get on that plane
And I go sailing through the air
Back to my home again
And if that plane should chance to crash
Go down in a fiery ball
The flames that turn that plane to ash
Won't touch my love at all
Forgive these frequent silences
For when I fade away
The reason I'm so quiet is
I've got so much to say
And I know you cannot carry me
As I cannot carry you
It's just this love for you
That I can carry through
Through these long planes of nightmare
That my own fears reflect
And those old tortured lying roads
That your piercing truths reject
I'm searching for a better way
And a real place to live
That's big enough for both of us
And all we must forgive
And if I cannot build that house
All up upon dry land
I'll say a prayer and turn away
And let go of your hand
But in the house of my heart
You've got the warmest bed
You've got the softest pillow
To lay your weary head
And in the house of my heart
There's room to fight and pray
It's deep enough and wide enough
For all we have to say
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Journey
04:07
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Sparks fly wild and the stone wheel spins,
And the water wheel sings;
And the sun raised high, like a mighty club,
Said "Where are you hiding?
And why are you hiding?"
In a lonely cellar where nobody hollers,
I hide among these silver dollars;
Born at the birth of prejudice,
And words of Jesus to the tune of Judas;
Raised in a cemetery, fed on dog meat,
I came to grow an herb garden underneath a backseat,
And I came to love an odd boy underneath the porch steps;
I came to love him more and more.
Sparks fly wild and the stone wheel spins,
And the water wheel sings;
And the sun raised high, like a mighty club,
Said "Where are you hiding?
And why are you hiding?"
Pierced with ice by a sweet song sparrow,
Dizzy with loss, terror to the marrow;
What world is this where I wake walking
To the roof falling in and deaf men talking?
Trying to wring one tear out proper,
Trying to sing one note out sober.
My body still, my mind will roam,
Longing swiftly, looking for a home.
Sparks fly wild and the stone wheel spins,
And the water wheel sings;
And the sun raised high, like a mighty club,
Said "Where are you hiding?
And why are you hiding?"
The part of me you love so much
Is part of me you cannot touch;
The part that winnows weak from wrong,
The part that knows it all along;
Though I'm hiding here I'm free,
The journey has not lessened me;
Through winter's purifying cold,
I'll rise in spring, if part is whole.
Sparks fly wild and the stone wheel spins
And the water wheel sings
With the sun raised high, O my love
It's here that I'm hiding
Here I am hiding.
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Trenches
03:33
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We fought in the trenches when you were a baby,
Fought for the love of the noblest cause;
We are all tired and soon to be beaten,
We have forsaken our ancestors' laws.
Many's the morning we wander towards battle,
With so many reasons for playing the game;
With life so short and death so long,
We were all comrades when the savages came.
We must kill everyone that we meet in this forest,
We must stamp out every stranger's fire;
We are all men, but these claws hang above us,
Everyone's out here and killing for hire.
If you meet my nephew please tell him to look for me,
Ask him if he can remember;
For the forest's ablaze and we all need companions,
When it comes to the cold of December.
At night, more fall from the edge of this cliff
For we cannot see where we're going;
And we'll never fight our way back to the bottom
Where our women and children are waiting
We'll soon run out of weaponry
We'll soon run out of time
When the sun comes up, we'll all be ready
To finish our food and our last drop of wine
break
A wailing arose from the boot of the valley
And passed with the dew in the calls of the morning
All of the women and children are silent now
Who will forgive us for losing?
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Lonesome
03:14
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I am so lonesome
As lonesome as darkness
As lonesome as water
As lonesome as God
There's sand in the bedsheets
And the blankets are dead
There's sweat in my brain
And there's ice in my head
Six boring phrases
Make up my mind
And I repeat and repeat them
Millions of times
The men behind purple
Love withut hate
They kill without passion
And they die without fright
And they sit over tea
In the glow of the den
And all of the lampshades
Are made out of skin
A shimmering landscape
Shone like death and like birth
And the touch of its coldness
Covered the earth
And the sky struck a warning
And the slock struck a tear
And the streams and the oceans
Quivered in fear
And the sun struck a warning
And the clock went insand
And the people in heaven
Were screaming in pain
I'm so lonesome
As lonesome as darkness
As lonesome as water
As lonesome as God
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Freedom Road
03:52
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One of these days, sun's gonna rise
Things are gonna look different around here
Bells are gonna ring and people gonna sing
And every voice is gonna come out clear
One of these days, better not be long
People gonna have to see what's wrong
Open our eyes, get wise
Got to quit passing these sins along
Cause there's too much suffering in this world
Too much lying in this world
Too much pressure in this world
Too much dying in this world
We're running out of matches, running out of time
Forgotten crimes will meet our eyes
Go see outside what starts in pride,
Muck in the ocean, smoke in the skies
We're getting close to the beginning
Getting closer to the end
Don't you know it, if we blow it
We don't get to start again
Hold a candle, while you might,
Anyone may bear a light,
Got to run, got to fight
Got to get some sleep tonight
Tell me again about heaven on the hill
Tell me again you love me true
I think I can, I hope I will
Go so far as to trust in you
And I hope that you are not in trouble
I hope that you are never lost
Though if you are, by cross or star,
We'll meet again in the holocaust
We don't count the cost of the struggle
We don't mind the weight of the load
We carry through the lies and poison
Gonna stagger down Freedom Road
One of these days, sun's gonna rise
Things are gonna look different around here
Bells are gonna ring and people gonna sing
And every voice is gonna come out clear
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Paul Scott Rap
01:46
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He's a little aloof, he's a good-natured good, Paul Scott! Paul Scott!!
In his torn shirt, he's a bit of a flirt, Paul Scott! Paul Scott!!
You can find him all day at the cornerstone cafe,
Earning his pay, Paul Scott! Paul Scott!!
A cynic might say, "Hey!—Make something of yourself!
It's not enough to look like an elf."
We say, "Hey, what d'ya want?
He's managing a restaurant, Paul Scott! Paul Scott!!"
It's confidential, a little-known fact,
Last year, Paul had an infection of the urinary tract
From dehydrating over a hot stove—
What does that prove? - he does it for love, Paul Scott! Paul Scott!!
How many managers are cooks also?
I don't know —Paul Scott is, though.
Today, he's cookin' fish again.
He went to school in the state of Michigan, Paul Scott! Paul Scott!!
The Cornerstone Cafe's located at 800 Dempster
You can enter in the front, or around by the dumpster
The manager's name, in case you forgot, is
Paul Scott! Paul Scott!!
He was doin' okay, till he did one thing wrong:
He asked me to write him a song
This one's it, and here's the last line:
I'm not sure if it's the end of his career or mine.
Paul Scott! Paul Scott!!
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The Model
02:43
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It's easy, it's easy for a girl to go blind,
When she's got the sun in her face all the time;
She's got the body, the water into wine,
She'll lead you to heaven or a life of crime.
She's a model, she does it better,
She's a model and she's well put together,
With the wind in her hair and the stuff in her sweater,
She gets shot in all kinds of weather
She's got two legs and a double name,
She's found a niche in someone else's game.
Good girl, bad girl, it pays the same,
And she looks good in a picture frame.
She's got a man, he's all fuzz,
He's a good man and he loves her because
Of who she is and what she does,
And who he is, and what he was.
He's a good man, he's a true man,
He's a sportscar and sauna and a suntan;
He's a number one and an "I can do" man,
He's a go-getter and an airplane glue man.
They live together, they've got no debts,
They've got no worries and no regrets;
They've got no children, no bugs nor pets,
They've got their problems but hey, no sweat.
Sometimes she will have a bottle,
And say "you'll leave me for a younger model,"
He says "If I do, babe, I know god'll
Strike me dead in my tracks for a while."
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At the Bar
01:22
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He is at the bar again when I come in;
I know him,
He's my friend.
He belongs to the bar.
He is there when I arrive,
He stays when I go home.
Sometimes he plays pinball,
Mostly sits alone.
He's ten years in this city,
Hops from bar to bar;
He finds that home away from home
Where the homeless people are.
When I first knew him,
He was running for soul,
Looking for the magic music
And the perfect hole.
He's lost that touch
That left us crying;
I guess the sun went down
When he was flying.
He is at the bar again when I come in;
I know him,
He's my friend.
He belongs to the bar.
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Sheila
03:56
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"If I had the chance, I'd leave that bastard."
Sheila said as she folded the steak knife in the mustard;
We sat together in her hot, greasy kitchen,
I was eatin' chicken, and Sheila was bitchin'.
She said, "I don't know why I stay around
Working my body down into the ground."
And she looked at the seams comin' apart on her purse
Like it was some great mistake of hers.
She said, "You know, he doesn't give a shit about me.
He's got a temper like TNT.
If he ain't hot one minute, he's cold,
I swear sometimes, he's two years old."
Sheila cussed about the heat and the price of meat
She said, "I'd be better off walking the street,
And I never would worry 'bout the rent no more."
When all of a sudden, there was her husband,
He was lookin' at her through the door.
Rick said, "Look Sheila, I get home from a hard day's work,
And here you are telling your lies to this jerk."
And he looked at his wife, and he looked at his kid
Like it was some great mistake of his.
Then the baby started crying, and they both began to yell,
That kitchen was one flight up from Hell,
My fingers started shaking and my back turned to wood,
I left just as quiet and graceful as I could.
I watch the light drain from the evening as I walk back down the line
And I still can hear 'em fighting, and the baby crying,
And the headlights shine, and I go blind
To some great mistake of mine.
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17. |
Narnia Song
04:57
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18. |
O My Son
03:11
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O my son
I married your mother when we were fiery and young
And through many hard times, to that guiding love I clung
But no love shines in her eyes any longer for me
I remember your first day at school
The playground, and your red coat
We kissed and hugged goodbye and I walked away
And I couldn't look back, I just love you that way
Remember the time when we drove around town
And I told you about the pipes that run underground
And you said "Could you talk about it again?"
And I told you about the waterpipes and the sewerpipes
How they run underground, and you said,
"Could you talk about it again?"
There are many things that we do not see
But I see you
And you see me
And I won't forget what you did
How you stopped your classmates from teasing the foster kid
And if you never learn to hit a ball
And you don't pick up your shoes
I still know all that I need to know about you
And I am with you, though I may leave
Some things are hard to see
But I love you
And you love me
And that's free
O my son
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While Jesus was waiting to die
A crow stared from the sky
Black coat and a passionless eye
While Jesus was waiting to die
His belly groped for air and
Piss burned down his thigh
While Jesus was waiting to die
He cried "My God why
Have you forsaken me?"
While Jesus was waiting to die
The world went slowly by
The sun rose thick and high
While Jesus was waiting to die
The crow flew gracefully by
His soul blew away on a sigh
While Jesus was waiting to die
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20. |
Jack and Jill
07:03
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(lyrics reworked since this recording)
Time stood still, when Jack took ill
Big flies died on the windowsill
Across the pond, the wind blew chill
And Jill ate candy in the kitchen
Curtains rustled over chocolate lead
Cool wind blew dust over Jack's forehead
Oak claws scraped the house and a blackbird fled
From the bright, cold touch of the morning
Jill heard the bed creak through the ceiling as she walked in her socks
Across the floor to the door of the old icebox
And she tried to assemble the afternoon's blocks
And looked at the light on the meadow
Near the roof, Jack rolled over to escape the heat
And wrapped his blanket tight around cold feet
The kitchen floor gave out a creak
As he stared at the light in the window
Jill walked outside with her hate in her hands
Past the marigolds and the garbage cans
She was out past the garden when the screendoor slammed
Gathering strength from the ground
Jack, as dazed as the day he was born
Saw light melt in the hills like butter on corn
He didn't know what it meant when he heard the screendoor
But he fell into sleep at the sound
Down through the pasture and into the trees
Jill plunged through thorns that clutched her knees
To a pathway covered in fog and leaves
Where the yew berries fade into shadow
And the wood grew strange, though she knew every place
Every nook where the busy spiders chase
No friend nor foe would show a face
On either hill or hollow
Jill took a stick to guide her when night began to stir
And she felt the horizon close in with a blur
A blackbird flapped, and it startled her
To think of a life in the air
Then it's up and hill and down a hill
She came upon a new-sunk well
One owl flew, while the world went still
Jill stood like iron, and brushed away her hair
A marvelous man rose in the pit
Like one made perfect, bit by bit
His mouth drew open, a trembling slit
As he looked her body over
And he spoke to her, he rattled her name
And he gnawed at the sight in her eyes as he came
She the puppet, he the flame,
"and so you're mine, sweet lover."
She cried, "you lie," but he took her by the shins
And she cried, "God help me," but he pulled her farther in
Then she swung her stick, and struck the thing
But she froze still in its hold
"Hoo, hoo," at the window—'twas the owl's croon
Jack saw Jill frozen there like stone
His blood swam warm, as he rolled to face the moon
And she felt him claim her from the cold
Jill climbed out of nowhere into simple night
Ivory skin shriveled up and tumbled out of sight
She stood with her stick in the new moonlight
On dirt in the heart of a clearing
Jack dreams of one he'll love forever
Running through the pines, a constant river
With a worn out mind, and a broken fever
Wrung like a dishrag, sleeping
Jill staggered upstairs and lay down in bed
With scars on her arms and peace in her head
Drifting into sleep when a thin voice said,
"Where have you been all night?"
In dawning light, where Jack woke up
Frightened stiff as a toad in a cup
Jill looked to the stars, though her eyes were shut
She said, "It's all right, love, it's all right.
It's all right love, it's all right."
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21. |
When My Time Comes
01:50
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When my time comes,
I would choose to be alone,
Breathing low, to an empty room,
And then I'd lay my body down;
And I'd leave this world behind;
Take my grandmother's hand
Over to the other side.
And I'd bring one song with me,
It's the one I never sing;
It's one that says nothing,
And touches everything.
And that song will be my boat,
Upon the shifting river,
I will sink or float
And the journey will be over.
Goodbye to hearts that burn,
Goodbye to hearts that break;
And I'll let go of the difference
That was not mine to make.
When my time comes.
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